Bestie Requesties: Relationship OCD

Retroactive jealousy, OCD in relationships, as requested by a subbie <3

Hi sexy exclu$ive smart creative baddies! This is my first subscriber requested post, for Maddie <3 If any of you saw my (cancelled) “pick me girl” halloween costume, I sold Maddie the “Hot Girls Drink Beer” shirt from that costume, so you know she has good taste. Maddie requested that I talk about my experience with relationship OCD, particularly with transitioning from a toxic relationship to a healthy one, and this is something I could talk about for weeks.

I had never really identified these symptoms of OCD until I got into my first really healthy relationship this year. I wrote it off for a long time as me just being a jealous person, which has always been true. I am chronically insecure and jealous in relationships, and I really hate admitting that on paper because it’s so stigmatized and shameful, but it’s just true. I have always been obsessed with my partners’ past relationships - I feel a deeply compulsive need to know everything.